Star Of Hope

2009-03-22T20:20:00.002+08:00

so, we finally come to the end of what has been a very tiresome holiday week, and tmr is the start of a new term and another day at school. whoopee. homework, exams, and more homework, what's not to love? anyway, onto my lengthy and mostly boring description of how this week went. truthfully it's actually quite short, my complaints on the other hand... basically this week has been just drill drill drill. and i'm really tired. i suppose drill was kind of alright, and it was all pretty worth it in the end, cause we ACTUALLY GOT A GOLD AND THE CHALLENGE SHIELD FOR DRILL COMPETITION!!!! YAY!!!! but eventhough we won, my pride has kind of been trampled a bit after all the negativity i showed during our drill practice sessions, and for that i humbly offer my apologies. i'm sorry, i know everyone probably doesn't care about the drill com that we have practiced so hard for, so i'll move on.

on wednesday, i think, was the strings/guitar concert and christines concert. the former i went, but for the latter the tickets were all sold out. the strings/guitar concert was really good and for those of you who didn't go, shame on you. i don't know about christine's concert, but i'm sure it was just as great.

WARNING, RANT STARTS NOW (skip this if you want, nothing i say here is of any consequence whatsoever)
first of all, i am really upset cause i didn't get to read or relax this whole holiday, well apart from that whole outing on monday, though i really don't consider sitting in a room full of screaming fans is very relaxing (fyi, i'm refering to campus superstar). back to the topic, i had this whole pile of books i was going to read during the holidays, and i didn't get to read one, though i did finally finish fragile things by neil gaimen so i'm pretty happy about that. but still, i was going to read the jane austen collection i have, and the books that i've started and stopped half way. AND, i didn't even have time to file the things in my file, which means i am so dead when they ask for a file check.

oh gosh, i sound like a nerd.
RANT OVER

hope everyones holiday was better than mine to say the least, and i look forward to seeing you all again in school tmr. bye.

lots of love,
mun

2009-03-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

i have no idea what to write about, so i think i'll start with the generic i got my results back, blah blah blah, some were good, some were bad, blah blah blah.
anyway, seriously, i think i did fine. i think i only did below average for subjects like english, and maybe life sciences if we take into account the project marks which kind of ruined my day, but that's a totally different story. anyway, back to english, mind you i am very disappointed with it. and to think i always thought that i would always pass my english. boy, what a slap in the face this was. the rest of my subjects were actually pretty average, which was quite a blow to my overly inflated ego. just joking. overall i am quite happy, which might just change all over again after we get lit back.
i am such a boring person, i haven't posted in three months and all i can write about is school and tests.
well, on a brighter note, tmr is the class party, whoopee. i don't understand what the big deal is about class parties. u show up and stuff ur face. wow how fun. ok, maybe it will be fun. i'm only writing that cause i don't want to bite my tongue tmr if i do actually end up having fun, though that is highly unlikely. everyone knows i'm not exactly the most enthusiastic person around, hope i don't dampen everyone's spirits though. a zombie class isn't exactly what i expect when i think of a bonded class. i'm pretty sure that that last line made no sense at all, but forgive me if some of those sentences seem like one of those rap songs (you know making no sense at all, hahaha.) by the way, forgive my lame humour too. i am currently pretty close to zonking out so i am going to stop here. gd night!

lots of love,
mun

p.s. i will try to update sooner. maybe if i'm feeling generous, i might even post my unfinished poem that i was going to submit for the i have a dream contest!

twilight

2008-12-13T22:36:00.001+08:00

disclaimer: i do not own the article the excerpt below is from neither do i own twilight or any other movie/book mentioned here

just as a warning here. for all those who are deeply in love with the twilight franchise be it the books, movies or characters, should not continue for i fear the excerpt below might just break your hearts.

so anyway, i stumbled across an article the other day, which i found deeply amusing. it was called The 5 Things You Need To Know About Twilight. below is the excerpt containing the important bits (practically the whole thing, but still not all of it, basically just missing the intro and pics.)

(excerpt begins here)

1: The Books Are Popular. Very Popular.
Sure, we're not talking Harry Potter levels yet - despite the many comparisons that Twilight has drawn to the wizarding series, mostly because it's a popular young adult series of novels that's transcended its target audience - but 17 million book sales in the three years since the release of the first book is still nothing to be sneezed at, and the books have collectively topped the New York Times bestseller list for close to a year. Face it; more people have read this than anything that inspired Iron Man.

Not to put to much pressure on the movie, but people are already writing about the way in which Twilight The Movie unites women of all ages in their lust for the franchise:

Let me introduce you to one of the most powerful new groups in Hollywood. It's not a group of actors, producers or directors. It's the rather interesting hybrid demographic who are getting their knickers in a twist over Twilight, due to be released in the UK next month... Teenage girls, young female adults and their mums converged at the Twilight conference at Comic-Con back in July, filling Hall H to capacity and rupturing tonsils at the appearance of their hunkalicious hero.
Believe me, this demographic is out there. They just don't have a name yet.

They're naming themselves, however; there are fansites called Twilight Moms (and its related site, Twilight Teens - and also Twilight20Somethings, just in case you don't fit into either of the previous two) as well as Team Jacob, Team Edward, Team Switzerland and even Team Twilightist amongst many others out there, each one a demonstration of obsession with the novels' familiar tale of a boy, a girl and the unspoken love that dare not speak its name.

2: The Books Aren't Very Good.
Critical reception to Twilight, the first book in the series was marginally positive (Booklist's "There are some flaws here—a plot that could have been tightened, an overreliance on adjectives and adverbs to bolster dialogue—but this dark romance seeps into the soul" being essentially the tenor of most mainstream reviews), but each successive book received poorer reviews, with Breaking Dawn, the final book getting drubbings from the LA Times ("The problem is Stephenie Meyer is no J.K. Rowling... We would have much preferred the whole thing to end in book three, "Eclipse," with yes, some happiness for Bella, but also some angst, some heartbreak, and a dark, ominous future looming"), Publisher's Weekly ("[G]randeur is out. This isn't about happy endings; it's about gratification") and Entertainment Weekly ("[You'll] abruptly lose all patience when... Meyer takes her supernatural love story several bizarre steps too far"). We may be biased, but sister site Jezebel came up with our favorite review:

It's 754 pages long, its heroine's dominant personality trait is low self-esteem, and, as Amazon reviewer Eventide points out, nobody really has to give up anything. Even the tedium of immortality is glossed over — these vampires just keep busy with their hobbies. If I had an eternity to read, I still might never pick up this book again.

3: The Writer Can Be A Bit Of A Prima Donna.
Although the Twilight series officially finished with the fourth book, Breaking Dawn, there was a fifth book planned, Midnight Sun, that would've retold the events of the first book from the hero's perspective. But then a first draft of the book's opening appeared online, and author Stephenie Meyer posted this response on her website:

I did not want my readers to experience Midnight Sun before it was completed, edited and published. I think it is important for everybody to understand that what happened was a huge violation of my rights as an author, not to mention me as a human being... So where does this leave Midnight Sun? My first feeling was that there was no way to continue. Writing isn't like math; in math, two plus two always equals four no matter what your mood is like. With writing, the way you feel changes everything. If I tried to write Midnight Sun now, in my current frame of mind, James would probably win and all the Cullens would die, which wouldn't dovetail too well with the original story. In any case, I feel too sad about what has happened to continue working on Midnight Sun, and so it is on hold indefinitely.

(She's since recanted slightly, telling Entertainment Weekly that "[t]he funny thing about that statement is I didn't actually write the majority of it... in the end only the one or two sentences written by me seem really jarring [compared with everything else], and people didn't get that there was sort of a joke in there." Midnight Sun, however, is still on hold.)

Nonetheless, she's kept a tight hold on the movie, only agreeing to the project in the first place when teeth size met her approval, and having final say on casting and the length and passion of final clinches. "It's been good for me just in general to have to speak up because I am so invested in this," she's explained.

4: VINOs: Vampires In Name Only.
The vampires in the Twilight books don't have elongated teeth, and they have no problem going out in daytime in their Pacific Northwest hometown, because it's so foggy (I can't tell if that's actually funny or just a kind of crappy dodge). They also, as almost every example of vampire fiction since, what, Anne Rice's Interview With A Vampire (or maybe Marilyn Ross' Barnabas Collins?), are tragic souls afflicted by a curse that don't really want to sink their teeth into humanity - and so, they eat animals and go on "hunting trips" to take care of their bloodlust. Yes, it's the Pacific Northwest Hipster Rural Lifestyle turned goth. Whatever happened to the good old days of Nosferatu and vampires who were unafraid to be vampires? I mean, if they have his pallor, why can't they have his mannerisms?

5: Remember The Golden Compass.
Summit Pictures, the studio behind the movie may be nervous about saying that they've got a hit on their hands ahead of the movie's release, but the movie is estimated to make somewhere between $20million and $50million in its first weekend, depending on how optimistic your sources are. It's worth remembering the fate of The Golden Compass, however; last year's "The New Harry Potter" had a similar amount of buzz pre-release, and a similarly impressive opening weekend... before audiences realized that the movies didn't live up to the books. Ultimately, the movie wasn't successful enough to warrant filming the second of the three His Dark Materials novels. The same thing may happen to Twilight. The figure to keep in mind is rumored to be $150 million; if Twilight makes less than that, you can forget about seeing New Moon, Eclipse or Breaking Dawn in theaters anytime soon. We can only hope.

(http://io9.com/5080617/5-things-you-need-to-know-about-twilight)

(ends here)

so this article is basically just criticising twilight, but strange enough i loved it, not that i'm a twilight hater or anything, i really love the books, but i'm just tired of people talking about it as if it's completely flawless. if anyone has been keeping up with the movie, like i have, they would have realised that the 5th one has actually been proven wrong and twilight hasn't gotten the fate of the golden compass and we are all expecting New Moon soon (the second instalment) (yippee. plenty of sarcasm here), though it hasn't gotten terrific reviews i must say. plenty reviewers have been saying that readers would be disappointed with the movies, but we usually are when books are turned into movies, so we'll live.

right now i should apologise to anyone if they were offended by this post or something, but i just felt that some might find it interesting to say the least. hopefully i don't get sued or assassinated for posting this article that criticises twilight. but even though i did add that excerpt in, in no way do i hate twilight and am actually as in love with it as every other one of its readers.

lots of love,
mun

p.s. don't hate me

Poetry

2008-12-12T21:24:00.001+08:00

disclaimer: i do not own the poem below

poetry is a special thing. very few people are able to truly appreciate it (not saying that i am one of them, though i do enjoy it) and even fewer are able to use it to showcase their innermost feelings.

i am more than certain that everyone has heard of and read some of shakespeares work and some may have even read (and enjoyed) poetry by other well known poets like robert frost and emily dickinson. but don't you think it's a pity that some heartbreaking poetry by gifted individuals are never given a second glance.

i recently bought a new book (surprise surprise) which is actually a compilation of the best young writers and artists in america. its a collection of essays, stories, poetry and even artwork which are all hauntingly beautiful. all of these writers write about such original things that i have never even dreamed or dared to write myself. below is a poem i found wonderful, beautiful and unique.

Disclaimer

No one knows why Samson fell
for Delilah, why we stand in sandstorms
mixed warm with rising air, believing the surface
soft enough for bare steps when all I
feel is grass weed ripping through my ankles.

We don't remember why Samson slept
in Delilah's lap, why clouds kept reeling in
streams of moisture so that the static
atmosphere stung and why I awoke
with the stars gyrating, gyrating.

No one knows why Delilah didn't care
why eleven hundred shekels was
enough for desert heat to crack
ground into pieces, dust left
on our lids and granules embedded
in the walls of my throat.

We don't know how Delilah felt
when she shaved Samson's braids to the floor,
how the blackness hurt, lights
infiltrated the sky and why I exhale minutes and
sit here still, alleging I see your face

-Ashley Chow

i doubt i'll ever come close to understanding the true meaning hidden deep within these lines but i hope out all of you at least one of you might understand and love this poem as much as i did. still i hope you guys enjoyed it.

lots of love,
mun

p.s. so sorry that when i finally post it's about poetry hope none of you mind.

2008-09-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

soooo nervous for EOYs. everyone has all but memorised every single textbook, and what am i doing, posting on my blog. wow, i'm such a hard worker. but i am a bit annoyed though. at the beginning of the year, we had a debate on whether grades matter, and majority of the class said that it didn't (i of course was in the minority). what's ironic is the fact that right now, those people who said they don't matter are the ones working their brains out studying. i really wish that I didn't care so much about my marks, i mean it's just ONE exam, but of course my brains going into overdrive thinking about how i am going to actually make it through these exams.

though there are somethings after exams to look forward to, like the inter-house games, the shanghai trip, and for some people in class even the "don't forget the lyrics onetee style" thing. just one small, tiny detail that i'm not looking forward to after exams though. nothing that important really, just the results. so praying that i maintain everything and just boost my history and lit by a grade or two. i know for sure that people like rohini and marian and rachel and christine and sam and practically everyone else in class is going to do well except for well, me.

ok, i think i really should go burn my brain studying now. maybe i'll get lucky and actually remember something this time. sure, and maybe pigs will fly.

lots of love,
mun

P.S. sorry its been such a long time since i've posted.

2008-07-24T19:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the most emotional day in LA ever. imagine a cinema full of people watching titanic. it was a very personal discussion within our class, so i don't think i should really write about it here. but there was so many things that everyone said yesterday that after the lesson, i really needed some time away from the class to sort everything out neatly in my head. i feel that after this, mrs ng must really admire a certain person in our class. speaking of which, i think that she really admires tanya too, judging by what tanya told me and what mrs ng said to the class. hope our classes really changes for the better after that talk, because, after all, we are gonna be in the same class till sec 3.

lots of love,
mun

2008-07-15T16:37:00.001+08:00

so back to the present (and away from the past), today, during p.e., while every other class had swim p.e., not that i'm complaining, we played multi-sports against 1I! obviously, 1I won in the end, i mean come on, they ARE a sports DSA class, so if they hadn't had won, it would have been really embarrassing (for them i mean). but other than that really embarrassing loss, (7-4), it was actually quite fun. i only played one game but it was really fun. i do wish that we had had more time to play, so all of us could have had at least two turns to thrash 1I (we wish). next week though, there'll be no more fun and games (boo hoo). instead we will be forced to endure 8 weeks of swim p.e. truthfully, i don't quite mind the swimming bit, but i absolutely detest the fact that we have to wear a swimsuit. thankfully, i am gonna wear one of those t-shirt and shorts type of swimsuit with a regular one below. AHH!!! geog test on thurs, so worried. i really need to do well for this one, if i don't, i don't think i would be able to survive the horror.

lots of love,
mun

2008-07-15T16:09:00.001+08:00

hi everyone! thanks for coming to the ALOUD! semi-finals to support me. i'm so grateful for such wonderful friends. oh, and thanks christina for ur tag, u're so nice. so anyway, on saturday was ALOUD! and i was soooo nervous. we were all supposed to wait in the MEP room till it was our turn, and the worst thing was that claire was first, maria was second and i was third! i thought that the both of them were really good, and maria made a bold move by singing her song acapella, and i felt that she pulled it off! WAY TO GO MARIA! ( no sarcasm here). when it was my turn, i was absolutely terrified. i walked onto the stage and my knees were shaking like mad. so when yi xin started with the intro, i almost missed it, but not quite, though i did miss it a few time during the song. the worst thing was that i was so nervous, i was practically holding onto the mike for dear life! but actually the whole thing was such a wonderful experience that i'm so glad i went through with it. and it was even more fun when maria, yi xin and i ( claire was preparing for her duet with nicole seet) were up in the gallery watching the performances. it was so much fun and everyone was really good, INCLUDING grace and esther. their harmonies were really good and i think everyone (even me) enjoyed their performance. ting and chan were quite good too, but they would have been better seperately. obviously, i didn't make it to the ALOUD! finals. but i really loved being there at the semi-finals, up on stage. who knows, maybe i'll get a second chance next year!

lots of love,
mun

P.S. sorry, i know that this is a really outdated post, but i thoght that before i write anything else, i should talk about ALOUD! first...

2008-06-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

I'm still so scared about the Aloud! semi-finals on saturday. I haven't even decided on what song to sing, and the aloud committee has been bugging me for it. I don't know if i should quit or just see it through, but my dad keeps saying that i should continue on with the competition, as i have already taken someone's spot in the competition. but you see the thing is, i was never that serious about this competition. i never would have thought that i would have gotten past the auditions. i really want to quit, but i don't want to be a quitter. everytime i feel that it would be worthwhile to stay in the competition, i get all scared about being on stage. i guess i would mind it less if it wasn't a competition, like in chapel or something, because u are singing for God, but this time i'm just singing for myself, which seems pretty selfish to me. i don't and can't be on that stage. i can't stand the thought of being compared to all those other brilliant singers. i feel like the only reason i was put into the semi-finals, was to be a laughing stock. i remember when i went for that bandage thing, me and my friends were commenting the singers on stage and saying how bad they sounded. what if someone does that to me????? i am so going to die. i don't want to be a singer on stage, i want to be the person watching. wouldn't that be both easier and more fun? i think i just don't want to be compared to everyone else. i'm not a terrific singer unlike everyone else. i'm most likely the worst of the group. but then why did i get in? i have no idea why i was chosen to be in the competition. so many other better, more confident people didn't even get in, and i did. i seriously think that there was a mix-up. truth be told, i think i was happier when i thought that i didn't get in than when i did.

lots of love,
(a very stressed) mun

LA assignment

2008-06-16T13:13:00.001+08:00

hi everyone! ok, i know everyone is probably stressing over the LA work, and i was too. i didn't quite understand what to do, so i e-mailed mrs ng asking for help. that was probably the one and only time i'm going to do that. anyway, her reply made it way easier to do theproject, so i thought i should help everyone a bit, by posting the e-mail here, hope it helps.

My Letter:

Dear Mrs Ng,

Sorry to bother you during the holidays, but I have a few questions about the poetry assignment you assigned us, and I hope that you will answer them.
1. When we were asked to use Slims and Specs as a guide for each poem, did you mean do Slims and Specs for each poem and include the three pieces in our final product, or to use Slims and Specs as just a guide to help us understand the poems?
2. What did you mean by, "with annotations that illustrate and explain the ideas being conveyed" ?
3. How are we meant to write the introduction that explains our choice of theme and poems? Could you give me an example?
4. If I heard right, you said that we were meant to hand this assignment in in the form of a file with sections. What did you mean by sections? How did you want us to seperate the project into sections?
5. Did you set a page limit for us?
Once again, I am sorry to have to trouble you with my questions during the holidays, but after asking around, none of my classmates were able to answer my questions, and I realised that not many people really understood what we were meant to do. I hope that you will be able to answer my questions as soon as possible.
Yours Sincerely,
Nicole Wong 1T

Her Reply:

Dear Nicole
please use the SLIMS and SPECS as a guide to annotate each poem. All poems shld go into the folder under one section.
Then, in the section of your essay, after the introduction part, explain each poem in full, using quotes ( annotations) as evidence.
As for the introductory part I do recall teaching you to write it in class. Anyway, just explain why you have chosen that theme, those poems and how each approaches the theme differently.
In future, please do clarify in class before the break if you are not sure for it can be difficult via email.
Hope all is clear now, please do not hesitate to ask if not:)
Have a good week ahead.
Regards
Muieng

Hope this post helps everyone complete their work. I wish all of you a happy last week of the holidays.

lots of love,
mun

2008-06-09T14:06:00.002+08:00

i can't believe it, i ACTUALLY got in. to think i was hoping to get kicked out before i have to perform in front of a live audience. i am so dead. why in the world did i decided to join? how in the world did i actually get in? maybe it goes with my sister's theory, they choose a few really good ones to go into the semi-finals, then just kick everyone else out later. makes things a whole lot simpler. ARG! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO????

lots of love,

mun

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2008-05-30T16:02:00.002+08:00

i'm so nervous. well, i decided to try out for aloud, and the results are coming out tmr! I think i did really badly. i think i messed up both my songs! anyway, i hope everyone gets in, so i'll have an excuse to go watch aloud. tmr's also the class party! i'm so excited! some people aren't going though. nvrm, at least some teachers are going too. hope everyone has fun!

lots of love, mun

P.S. sorry this post is so short

2008-05-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

modulars r finally over!!!!! bio was so hard i think i'm going to fail. suprisingly physics was a little bit easier. all the SBC classes are going to china at the end of the year, and i'm not sure i want to go. truthfully it sound really boring but it does interest me a bit. we only need to pay around 1600 dollars so my mom says we'll most likely be staying in a garbage can, but i think she failed to remember the difference in currency there. half the year is almost gone and the june hols will be starting soon. for the first time in my life, i'm wishing that the june hols would come later, how will i ever survive without school?! i love my class i absolutely do, but sometimes i can't help but miss 6.6. it used to be so much fun playing with all my friends duing recess, and talking about everything during class, but now i cant. because i'm sitting next to carmen chong, everytime i actually have a conversation with her its usually about pure utter rubbish. so frustrating. anyway, back to today, all of us were busy trying to study for the exams, but i think we did more talking than studying. i bet i would have had a lot more fun if i hadn't been so worried about exams. i'm soooooo sleepy. i think i'm about to fall asleep on the key board. ok i'm turning in now. hope everyone did well for their modular. there's no point worrying about it now, what's done is done.

lots of love,
mun

2008-05-01T13:50:00.002+08:00

IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF MAY! MAYDAY! so sad its a holiday and i have to study. yesterday was sam's b'day and i am so jealous. during recess a whole crowd of people rushed into class to wish sam a happy birthday. that girl has so may friends. i'm so happy i actually passed my 2.4!!! of course without flying colours. and its all thanks to chantal liu's brilliant advice, no thanks at all to esther cheah. if i had actually tried to overtake everyone in my path, i would have so died. although it is thanks to her i did quite well for my 5 item standing broad jump. i am so worried about my modular tomorrow. hope 1T does well and we beat 1G and 1S. hahaha. i really want to change my blogskin, i am getting bored of it and i think so is everyone else. if anyone has any suggestions pls put the link on the tagboard but a reminder it HAS to be black because i can't change the colour of my tagboard without deleting all the previous tags. dont ask. by the way, all you people who keep saying you are fat, take a good look at the mirror then take a good look at me. notice the difference by any chance? you in the mirror, skinny. me, fat. memorise it and never never call youself fat again. i will be very offended if you do. anyway, gd luck for your exams, and if you are reading this post right now, GO STUDY!!!!!!!

lots of love,
mun

2008-04-14T20:16:00.002+08:00

i know i havent posted in awhile, but alot of things have been happening. there's ANOTHER drama now, and this time i'm like one of the main stars. all of us are sort of drifting apart, and apparently i 'backstabbed' tanya so she wants to "get out of the clique". i think my hormones are in disorder. i feel very emo these past few days. we changed seats last week, and i'm sitting next to CARMEN CHONG and this reeally nice, quiet girl victoria. my new group is nice and all, but i miss my old grp. my new grp is tooo quiet. i miss woo meil ling and rohini's quarrells their so much fun to watch. of course, i do miss sitting next to yi yi. we're getting alot of homework now and i dont know how to do it. i dont want to leave it till the last minute, but i havent found an 'inspiration'. everyone's posting bout the swim meet so i guess i might as well talk about too. tan sent me another emo note that day and it really hurt my feelings. she avoided me the whole day and hung out with nell instead. we were doing this yeoman's service, so we had to stand for one hour at a go in the hot hot hot sun. i spent most of mine time either at jackson (although i dont support it at all. i support the wonderful LEE!!) or with ting yan. actually ting yan is really nice although she is the most fun when she's high. as usual lee came in LAST!!!(note the enthusiasm in this). today i stayed back to do the poetry project. we didnt get much done. gwen and sarah came halfway through, and gwen tried to talk to me about tanya but we didnt exactly finish the conversation.

lots of love,
mun

P.S. i just realised that my whole post is mostly about tanya...

2008-03-26T14:30:00.002+08:00

everything in school is changing. i feel alot more different than last year. my views on alot of things are changing. someone i use to be very close too, i cant stand the sight of. i dont know why i do, but its just that everytime i see that person, i have this feeling of loathing towards her. i know its most likely just jealousy or annoyance, but i just want everything to stay the same, i want to like her again, i dont want anything to change. change to me is a very very painful process, i know its the same for others too, but some people love it. to me whats scariest about it is that i dont care as much as i did before, i think i'm starting to forget. i dont want to. i dont want to move on. as i re-read the post, i know it sounds very much like someone just died. but it is true. i dont want that part of me thats been there for 2 yrs to die, i want to keep it there forever. it may sound really emo, but i hope everyone knows that i'm perfectly sane right now. i hate change but right now i hope something does. i dont want to continue hating that person. hate is not exactly something thats healthy.

lots of love,
mun

2008-03-13T14:10:00.002+08:00

i bought two new books on sunday. the first one i read was a sarah dessen book called keeping the moon. i had my nose in it all the way till tues and i had to admit that it didnt quite live up to my expectations. but the second book was wonderful. i just finished it and i think it was the best book i've read all year. alot of people made fun of the title though, but i found the title really interesting. the book's called, scrambled eggs at midnight. its a really sweet book with some very touching moments. but, of course its a very corny, mushy book that i dont think any of my friends would like, let alone read it. sigh, no idea how i became friends with people so different from myself. anyway, in case no one has noticed,this is supposedly my 30th post, so i think im gonna make this a really long one. i have a lot of things to talk about. this week it seems to be nothing but parties. just visited my own blog and read all the tags. everyone seems to be talking all about netball. so to reply to all the tags, NETBALL SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, so anyway, gwen's birthday was really fun, but i think gwen was a little stressed by everyone. we went to band-age after, and it really sucked. i think my eardrums are permanently damaged after all that noise. hope you're feeling better today gwen!

on monday, it was eddies party. we went to this italian restaurant for lunch and i was sitting next to sarah, opposite sheryl and sam. all of us were teasing sam saying that she was flirting with the waiters. and sheryl was demonstrating how she could flirt with them. after, we played dog and bone. it was lots of fun exept when gen's grp beat ours. then we went swimming and everyone tried to fit onto this one float and paddle all the way to the other end.

chan's birthday was the next day, and no offense chan, but it was really boring. first we went to go on the luge and do you know what, everyone forgot about me, ting and sarah wong. after that i really didnt talk to anyone much. i felt really left out, and apparently marian was angry at me that day, so she was practically glued to loo loo, gen and esther cheah (that part seems a little strange), gwen was sick that day, sam was talking to ting yan and sheryl, so i mostly talked to tan. i felt really close to her again, like when we were in perth. actually the reason why chan's party seemed boring to me was mostly my fault, i was feeling terrible that day, and everyone not talking to me kinda made it worst but thank goodness tan was there, if not i might have just went back early. my mom was supposed to come pick me, tan and sarah wong up. while we were waiting in the lobby for her, me and tan had our noses really blocked, but none of us had tissue, so tan went to borrow the whole box from this guy at the lobby. i used 8 pieces of tissue to blow my nose, and im serious 8 pieces. when i went home, i was right, i was coming down with something. i had a serious headache when i went home and i used up 3 boxes of tissue. most likely some bug going around.

so thats the end of my really long post hope its long enough!

lots of love,
mun

p.s. i'm waiting for the stars/moon to find me

2008-03-05T10:27:00.002+08:00

hi. i got my computer access back from my mom so i can finally post. i'm so excited about gwen's b'day on sat, and i already thought of the perfect present but i can't say it now cause gwen might be reading.and if anyone is wondering about the swimming thing gen and marian are talking about, i invited some of my really gd frens to with me to macs after the cross country thing. i invited marian, gwen, tanya, sarah, sam and esther and gen. (bothof them ditched me for the ridiculous netball finals. aren't i more important than that? the ans is of course, NO! ok right now i'm in the com lab with marian and practically the whole of 1T is here. i need to go now. got to finish the gb homework. speaking of which i hope it rains today then i don't need to go for drill!

lots of love,
mun

2008-03-01T15:32:00.003+08:00

sorry about how emo my post sounded yesterday, but it was because i was really angry with my mom yesterday for scolding me. she scolded us again today during lunch. i find my mom a very unreasonable person. she gets angry at me when i lose my temper and lose control over my emotions, yet all of have to be understanding when she loses her temper. she keeps saying that we don't have a right to lose our temper but she does because she's upset with something. doesnt she understand that we can get upset too? anyway, next week is health awareness week in school so everyone is going to take part in activities like benchball and mass skipping. everyone except me. dont get me wrong, i really really wanted to play benchball or something but there wasnt enough space for everyone to play. the good thing though is that i dont need to run during our cross country on friday because of my 'condition'. yesterday we had our health checkup and it was a lot of fun. while we were waiting, we played contact and a game sam taught us called polar bear. when i was inside, i laughed my guts out with woo meiling because she kept comparing both our figures and making sound effects. when i had my health checkup, everything was absolutely fine. my spine was relatively straight, my eyesight hasnt increased and best of all, i lost 4 kg! that was definitely what made me happiest. marian is getting closer and closer to her group members and tanya and all of them are getting a whole lot closer to all their classmates. i guess i feel a little jealous cause right now i feel more alone than ever. but i guess my 'time' will come. i hope and pray that it comes soon.

lots of love,
mun

2008-02-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i really feel like my life is falling apart. and i'm not just being emo. i don't understand why i feel what i feel at all. nowadays, i'm feeling scared, worried and lonely all the time. usually, i would just push it all to the back of my head and not think about it. but today, i started covering it up by just laughing alot, i felt like i was crazy. i don't think anybody understands how i feel because no one actually seems to care. i felt really angry today at a few people in school, but i didnt understand why. today was supposed to be a really special day because it is leap day, and i guess it is in certain aspects. i love leap days. they always appear to me as all the magic in the four years all combined into one day.

lots of love,
mun

P.S. i feel like there's something i forgot to say but when i remember it, i'll most likely edit it in.

2008-02-28T10:47:00.002+08:00

hi everyone! in the com lab now with gwen. i've just been abandoned by tan.... we had gym today, and i almost lost my temper. sam was getting me really frustrated because she kept adding things to the routine but she never properly explained it. but PE was quite fun because we ran 4 rounds and i made it the whole way through, and only stopped ONCE. thats a wonderful accomplishment for me. part of the reason was that esther was running with me and she said i wasnt allowed to stop if she was running next to me. so after she finished her 3 rounds, i was finally able to walk but then, nell and ting yan came along. all three of them are like pro runners especially esther. i bet she could sprint the whole 4 rounds if she wanted too. ok i need to go now, recess bell is about to ring.

lots of love,
mun and gwen

2008-02-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

hi everyone. today i went for gb, and our devotions was really great, we talked about ruth and the moabites. it was so much more interesting than i thought it would be. during gb, i keep getting the feeling of being left out. it's sort of the same feeling you get when everyone seems to be in on a secret and you're the only one who doesn't know what it is. everyday, when i'm with my friends, i feel like i'm living in a dream. but you see the thing about dreams, is that sooner or later you got to wake up. i can't help feeling that the dream is going to end soon, and i'm gonna have to wake up and face reality.

2008-02-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

ok. school started 2 months ago and i was so upset. i was in a totally different class from tan, esther, both sarahs, gen and gwen. but the good thing was that marian and sam are in my class. right now i'm in 1t and it ROCKS!! there is so much drama going on in 1G and i still have no idea how marian manages to keep up. i am so far behind that i didnt know about that whole S, B, C..... drama until last week. i really miss 6.6. after so many years with the same classmates, you still feel a certain attatchment to it. i'm trying my best to stay close to all my old friends but sometimes it just seems so hard and its almost as if tanya and i are the only ones trying. i'm getting so upset because everyone, especially gen and marian, are already moving on, and instead of keeping the old friendships, their making new ones and forgetting the old. now i find it so hard to talk to my friends like how i was able to before. everyone keeps saying that the friendships you make in secondary school are the ones that last but what if the frienships that i made in primary school are the ones that i want to keep? school is getting harder and harder, i feel like i cant cope. im almost failing everything and i feel so inferior to everyone else. my dad says i have an inferiority complex and i whole heartedly agree. suprisingly i joined gb again this year. i feel like gb is sort of like my safety blanket, i just cant bear to let it go. 1T has been wonderful. everyone is just so nice. i think some people might actually like me. this year i've sort of grown closer to sam, marian and yi xin, each of them for different reasons. i've gotten closer to marian because i spend most of my time with her, and i laugh the most with her too. with yi xin its mostly because after being insane with marian, i need to at least be sane with someone. but yi xin can get quite high sometimes. after the perth trip, sam and i got really close and she's the perfect person to go to for 'counselling'. truthfully, 1T is a wonderful class with wonderful classmates and teachers. right now, i think that if you were to ask me to change classes, i would most likely say no.

lots of love,
mun

Perth

2007-11-02T16:13:00.002+08:00

IM BACK FROM PERTH!!!! it was really fun till the last few days. then it was terrible. me and tanya had a big, huge, fight with esther. actually, to me, it wasn't really that big a matter but tan and esther seemed to think it was so a small fight became a huge drama, although it is quite fun to fight with esther... anyway, the rest of the trip was really fun. perth was a whole lot nicer than i expected.

places i enjoyed:

Lake Monger- it was really beautiful and the weather was there was alot like like shanghai so of course me and marian enjoyed it. but everyone else felt really cold (well i did too). everyone except chantal and valerie. both of them weren't even wearing jackets!

Fremantle Market- there were lots of things at fremantle market, they ranged from kazoos to bee wax candles. too bad we couldn't bargain, if not i'm sure everyone would have had sore throats after that.

Methodist Ladies' College- strange enough, this school isn't really a college. it's just a combination of a primary school and a secondary school (i think). some of my frens and i were shipped off to 6G. me and tan tortured this girl, yvonne, to death. we had lunch in the field and it was really fun. everyone made lots of frens and had lots of fun!

Farm Stay- this was the second place we stayed at on our trip. it was beautiful. there was a humongous lake in the middle of the farm and it was nice and cold. most of the drama between me, esther and tanya happened here. i remember me and tan were running from place to place trying to hide from her.

Gravitational Centre- we went to one of those star viewing centres during the evening and there were so many stars! the good thing about perth is that it's really dark so we can see many, many stars. we even saw Jupiter!

places i didnt enjoy:

Boshak- Land of the flies!!!!! it was terrible. all the flies were attracted to my black jacket, so i had to stand really near the fire to get them all of. what was worse was that our guide was so used to it, that when some flies landed on his face and crawled into his mouth, he acted like he didnt notice.

Worm Farm- i think its name says it all really. strangely, tan felt quite at home there. hahaha.

p.s. so sorry it took me so long to post this. life got in the way.

2007-10-15T15:55:00.000+08:00

PSLE is finally over!!!! i was meaning to post this a week ago but of course the ever lazy me decided the put it of to the next day and the next and the next... well anyway, lots have been happening in school these few days. we had hip hop dance lessons,rock climbing and of course the thing we needed the most, social etiquette classes. i have to admit that that class was a waste of money. the end of our primary school years is approaching and i feel quite nostalgic. but no matter what im determined to go out with a bang! i still havent decided which secondary school im going to yet, but im still considering mgs. i have made many happy memories there and i dont think im ready to let them go yet. but though mg has given me many happy memories, there are still many sad ones that i want to forget. still, the chances of me staying in mgs look quite good cause i have no faith that ill get into rgs. nvm, i shouldnt think 'bout these things i should focuse on the trip coming up. i cant wait for the perth trip. my class and the 5.6 class are all taking a wonderful trip together. im too tired to elaborate so i think ill keep the details for my next post which might be in the year 3000 or something.

2007-05-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY! JORDIN SPARKS HAS OFFICIALY WON AMERICAN IDOL! Now to all those people who have lost their bet, just a reminder, I'll like the money paid in cash. I like feeling the money before it goes into the bank. Just joking. So sorry I haven't been posting in a while. As most of you know, this year is PSLE year! ARGH! I have a gut feeling i'm gonna fail. NOOOOO!!! Okay here's what's been happening in my life. My dad's friend, Steve, has come to visit us. I haven't seen him in such a while... As a matter of fact, the last time i saw him was when i was 5. Well, when he came, we got along as well as before and he gave me 50 euros. yah yah, i know i'm soo money face. signing off now and now i must say:" JORDIN SPARKS,CARRIE UNDERWOOD & KATHERINE MCPHEE ROCK!!!"

2007-04-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

school has become really lonely now. every term we change seats, and this term, would you believe, i volunteered to sit alone. *sigh* now i have to actually do my homework and suffer 'surround sound' me and my stupid lonesome self. well at least one good thing came out of this. now, i have 2 desks to put al my stuff in. maybe it'll make me neater. yeah right. i'm a lost cause.

2007-02-26T14:31:00.000+08:00

I'm still alive, the exam didn't kill me, let's hope the other don't kill me too. The vocabulary was the hardest. I didn't know what chronically ill is so I put asylum. Can you believe it? I put asylum. Of all choices. I am so dumb. For another question, I put facet, which means sides of a diamond or something like that. It had nothing to do with the passage! Why did they put it there in the first place?

2007-02-26T04:22:00.000+08:00

Exam TODAY!!! I'm still burning the midnight oil, well actually 4 a.m. oil. Aarggggg!!! I'm gonna flunk english, maths, science, and every subject I'm taught. Okay. I need to take a deap stay positive (the opposite of how I act every day) "I know I will get good marks for exam. I know I will. I know I will". As I've said on my tagboard, I wish everyone, not only those in 6.6, Happy New Year and good luck in their exams. YAWN... I gonna go to sleep now.

2007-02-25T10:48:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody! I haven't posted in about 2 months unlike lizzie and jeryl who post everyday if they can. P6 is actually not that different from P5, but I hate the amount of homework they give us. I asked some of the secondary girls I know and they said that P6 is more fun than any other year. I wonder if I''ll feel that way too.

My Dog

2006-12-30T09:13:00.001+08:00

Three days ago I got a new dog and it is so cute. Her name is Saphira but we call her Saphi for short. Her "brother" is coming in februrary. When I take a picture of them I will post it.

New News

2006-12-13T14:43:00.000+08:00

I have a problem that I need help from you guys to tell me what I should do. Yesterday, my parents told me that they decided that I could get my hair straightened permanently. I have always wanted to but it's the only thing that makes me stand out from the crowd and the whole year people have been saying how much they like my hair. My head is about to blow please help me.

I'm Back

2006-12-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been in china for a month and there were no computers there. Please fill me in on how the class party went.

Survey

2006-10-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

I just did one of those surveys that we have to do for school and I just read a hilarious question. I have tears in my eyes now from laughing. Here's the question:

Pupil Needs Survey A Qu 4.1
I exercise regularly to keep myself trim and fit. SA A D SD

HAHAHA Only those who know me will know why it's hilarious.

My Class

2006-10-11T20:22:00.000+08:00

The thing I hate the most is living up to expectations. Do you know how it feels to know that you let someone down that feeling to me is worst than the feeling of a penknife in your skin (sorry if I surprised any of you with today's incident but it really doesn't hurt that much although I now have a scar). People keep expecting me to get full marks just because I've done so in the past, but how can anyone keep scoring full marks over and over again? These few days I've realised that I'm not the person I was a few years ago. I've finally gotten the friends that I've wanted and I've finally realised that I do not need to be first in everything. And I know that no matter how hard things get I will always remember everything that happened this year, all the enemies made, enemies lost and new friends blossoming from enemies. Now I can finally walk through the school, not having to worry that I have no friends in the school, or whether I'm getting full marks for the next test or if the next day my life will be over because as long as I remember my class, I will always hope for a better tomorrow.

What I Want The Most

2006-10-04T13:49:00.000+08:00

People don't believe me when I say, "I'm going to die." No one knows me well enough to say that I'm telling the truth. They never know what troubles I go through everyday. Neither do they know how hard it is for me to try and make friends nor is it easy for me to fit in. Ever since I started school I've always wished that I could be like those people with tons of friends surrounding them. Sometimes I feel as if I would give up anything to have a best friend who is a true friend. Yet I hope that no matter what I do, I hope that everyone will still treat me the same. I hope this is not too dramatic for you.

Center Stage

2006-10-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I had so much fun performing for the first time on stage at the esplanade. I was in the finale piece 'We're All in This Together'. I arrived there at 4.00pm thinking I was late when I found out that everyone in my dressing room was late too so I got transfered to the main stars' dressing room. It was alot of fun and everyone was so nice. Most of them were older than me but we got along really well. On that day it was raining so we didn't have a very good chance of doing the show since it was at the amphitheatre. The first set was cancelled but after that it stopped raining for awhile so we were hoping we could do the second set. We waited and waited but nobody called so we assumed that it wasn't cancelled so we changed and put on our make up. I have never seen myself with make up before and I looked really different. And don't get your hopes up that I'll bring the photos to school because I know all of you will laugh at me. Anyway, a while later, we learnt that the second set had also been cancelled so we had our fingers crossed for the third one. And to our good fortune, the third set wasn't cancelled and we had so much fun doing it.

Monkey Business

2006-09-23T12:02:00.000+08:00

Doesn't that monkey look exactly like my bro and guess what he chose it!

Shangrila

2006-09-21T14:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my dad's birthday and we went to Shangrila to celebrate and I bet I've gained more than 10kgs. Do you know that it is impossible to finish drinking a cup of water if you don't do it in one gulp there. They just love to keep refilling and refilling.

Paul Twohill is out!

2006-09-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

Paul Twohill is out and we are all very happy. Except for thousands of fans who cried at the end when they heard he had gotten out. I would have too if I realised I had just wasted 20 bucks on getting the same haircut as a guy who didn't even win.

He's dead!

2006-09-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

I cannot believe that Steve Irwin is dead. At first I thought it was a publicity act or something but when I found out it was real I almost fainted. He has faced much deadly creatures and he died at the hands of a stingray which only attacks if it is provoked. And how in the world is swimming over it provoking it? Well at least he died doing something he loved and he did shoot that stupid documentory for his daughter.

I'm Finally Here

2006-08-30T17:41:00.000+08:00

Hi! The first 2 posts my friend helped me post and she is just the best! Now this is the real me.

2006-08-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

VIOLA~ done. nicole! u like it? =D i gotta go find music. but whatever. i think ill just delete that part. =P

-lizzie-

2006-08-30T17:20:00.000+08:00

nicole give me the stupid blogskin so i can give this stupid blog a stupid makeover.